I used to fear stillness. When silence was my only company, my thoughts would unveil themselves and loudly invade my mind. They reminded me of unresolved issues I'd carefully hidden and shuffled under my busy, time-consuming schedule.
For moments, I'd review those things. But they always began to taunt my emotions, causing unwelcomed reactions. I'd try to linger, searching for solutions to the awakened pain. But overwhelmed with sadness, I'd remove myself from the still moment.
Without looking back, I'd dive deeper into my schedule. Hiding those issues again. Until the next still moment.
Is it possible to just release without dissecting unresolved issues?
One day, exhausted from the cycle, I asked myself that question. I'm still learning the answer. But I've discovered this: sometimes healing isn't about solving every problem.
Sometimes it's about surrendering the need to understand everything. Sometimes God asks us to simply release — to trust Him with the unresolved.
Stillness is no longer my enemy. It's where I meet God, and where He gently takes what I cannot carry.
✦ This reflection is from "A Still Moment," page 62 ✦